-=JAson the Limer=-

Bone marrow is full of the cancer cells.


but she cant afford chemotherapy any more as she is already quite weak.

right now, its just to wait.
she keep using the word "等死".
my dad : "医生讲很严重。。。"

Only medicine given now are steroids to reduce her swelling. and some gastric medicine.

good that she's supposed to still go back to her doctor in one month's time?
but the doctor also said "if u r too weak, u can dun come...."

a nurse/officer from the hospice service is coming on monday.

right now she's seems okay.
eating meshed food. and many small meals of milo/cereal the whole day.
coughing more though.

but becoming depressed and crying each time she think about the inevitable.
waking up from a nap/sleep being frightened each time.
I am also not very sure how to comfort her..
each time saying.."its okay..." knowing that its not.

I pulled out of CSC day today hoping to spend time with her, but ended up doing my own work today. sighz.
right now my dad has become semi-retired to take care of her full time.

not sure what i should be worried about. her condition...our finance....my projects...my studies....
for each day that passed, i end up wasting time worrying too.
just this week, i spent a few nights just researching more about lymphoma.
and getting mixed results, but ended up feeling none the worse.

preying for a miracle. desperately.